This girl, I didn't realize how much I needed her. After Abby turned two, I got this feeling that another one was not in the cards for us, I cried and cried but became okay with it and moved on. A year later I got this feeling we should try one last time...... My amazing doctor put me on letrazol and progesterone, the first round failed, I told myself two more rounds and I will give up but I would not give up without a fight, I started working out, drinking celery juice, infertility tea, ovulation tests and lots of prayers. The second round was successful!
I took 20 tests watching the line get darker and darker, watching to make sure it didn't disappear like it has before. first appointment, the Doppler couldn't pick up a heartbeat (I had a feeling before I went that that would happen) they did an ultrasound and found her strong heartbeat
I have so much scar tissue it was in the way, she grew and grew, so amazing and so perfect, fast forward to birth, it was amazing, Dr pulled her out
the second I heard her cry I started crying, relief that she was here and so in love, the anesthesiologist started singing a hymn and I just cried, felt so close to my savior and grandma, they layed her on my chest and I never let go.
I felt so so happy and so complete, she was so perfect, so calm, so sweet.
she has taught me to savor every minute, to hold on tight, to pay attention to the little things.
she was such a good baby, great sleeper, great nurser, rarely cried.
she was my light at the end of the tunnel
she has taught me so much.
she has taught me to slow down, to take time to be greatful. To cuddle, to nap, to watch the show. She was sent to me to teach me life is a gift, it is precious, and not something we should take for granted. I'm so grateful heavenly father sent me each of my girls, but so grateful for one more reason to do and be my best. ❤️
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